What's the point

What's the point? I finally agreed to stop. As in for real. I want to pick up sports again. I felt so in love with karate. My mum found another ciggy stick in my room. But the problem is, I didn't smoke. It was so so so long ago. And she broke her promise and told my dad. Then why should i care anymore? I stop because i WANT to not because i am ASKED to.

No matter what happen, live or die. Trust or not, my choice is to STOP!
support me people.
XOXO

I FAILED AGAIN

After 7 days of non-nicotine days, I still couldn't resist the temptation. The toxic in the cigarette feel so good. My mum found another box in my room, I was totally out of cigarette. She also kept all the cigarette away from me to make sure i wont take another puff. But yet, I still had my way. In my school uniform, i took a deep puff. Ahh~ feel so good, so great. That puff also brings me closer a step to death. I don't care! i want to enjoy life first. How could i stop? Its so addictive. Its a drug! Its part of my life now!

the story line

I've chose to write out all my smoking experience here. Just to motivate myself to stop. I know smoking is bad, all the harmful effect and threat cigarettes can bring to us. But why ? Why cant i stop? The instant weight gain after quitting smoking makes me want to cry. I cant let myself grow fat, i cant. i really really cant. Its just to horrible. My weight is something i am very concern about, i rather die than to see myself grow fat. I am like any ordinary teen, growing fat makes me feel like dying. I never regretted that i start smoking. Family and Friends kept advising me to quit, but its not as easy as it seems, the lack of nicotine in your blood can gives you headache. (not everyone but some). I had serious headache. After stopping for 2 weeks, i couldn't resist anymore. When i took a puff, i could feel it, i could feel the nicotine flowing throughout my blood vessels, from my heart all the way up to my brain. It's just so real, it's also the flow of toxic, I never felt so good before. It is like a MUST in my life, How can i stop? Nicotine patch? Chewing gum's? None of them worked for me. I need more motivation. Till then